Talking To New York (A City Where You Can Be Yourself)

A lot of heaven was in my life and I just like everybody fell into the abyss. I, like all of us, had to make hard decisions and follow the path with eyes closed.

One of the difficult days for me, I decided to look for support from someone who could really help me. On such a day, I wrote a letter to a city that has warmed thousands of people with their dreams for some time.

Every word we say, every sentence we write, every letter will eventually reach its destination in whatever universe or dimension it would be.

Hello, New York. I want to tell you a lot, but I don’t always find strength or words in me. So while I think about you, I will try to say everything I wanted.
Your opinion is crucial to me, and I hope you can give me your answer. You know, one of my first notations was about you, New York, where I tried in three words to describe how I feel about you.
Perhaps, it will seem ridiculous to you, but I am sitting and listening to the Z100 radio now to feel much closer to you.

If we sincerely wish to be near someone, any words and obstacles will not be important for us.

I'll be honest, sometimes in difficult moments of my life, when I stay alone, I think you are near and hear me. Well, that's not always the case. Sometimes it seems to me that you are too far away from me and then I need your advice and support. I really want to be near and enjoy your parks and streets, walk through the malls and think everything is good.

Absolutely any thing or city has its soul.

But it happens when we all lose our hope and become pessimists. Sometimes it seems to me that I have already created or built everything, and maybe it will collapse because of my weaknesses or my short-sightedness.

You know I always wanted to be and live with my family and you. But I'm afraid that this desire absorbs us all and makes us weaker. But I'm afraid that this wish absorbs us all and makes us weaker. How to solve this problem, I don't know, and this is a very sensitive issue for us.
I really understand that I have all the opportunities to improve my situation. But the knowledge of old disappoints pulls us all down and does not allow us to realize all the goals.
I was so tired of all this, home, bad atmosphere, feelings for my loved ones. I was even tired of my illness. I decided the best way to live is to try surviving.

Despair makes us cowards or heroes, but it’s all about our inner self.

But I'm still afraid to be alone. Loneliness is familiar to me, but it is like silence and gloom. The longer you live in it, the harder it is to look at the bright side of life. Loneliness is a swamp which draws you and your close people for the century and century.
By the way, you won’t believe it, but I still found a way to make myself live differently and see other aspects of my life. I'm not perfect but I can say in my defense I still try to change a lot in myself.
To my deepest regret, I once saw a part of my future, and I know what I have to go through. But I still don’t get angry like Realm of Hope’s meerkats thinking it to be a good thing. Only we can change our destiny.
Just know, I still don't want to give up my dream, the purpose and meaning of life, as if it were difficult for me!

Sages say, stay on your own because fate loves strong spirit of people, try not to disappoint it and achieve your goals on your own.

Everyone has their own favorite city or just a place where everyone believes there will be good. Believe it or not, our dreams and our words are possible. We program that life in which we live or will live.

Be careful with your dreams because they can come true, and you must obey their will.

I sincerely wish you to find that place, that city where you can be yourself and it doesn't matter whether it is New York or Tokyo, Paris or Brussels.
Find yourself in it. Save this feeling and never let go!


xx
Cass